The last you heard from me was THIS blog post, in which I really laid it all out, and expressed my exhaustion and frustration with the roadblocks on my creative journey.
A friend recently encouraged me not to be naïve — that I’m influenced by the culture around me unless I intentionally push back and form the kind of culture I want to be a part of. And so, I am striving to make every second of my day something that is intentional and not something that just happens to me. And not necessarily because of that, but at the same time as that, I seem to be hitting a rhythm in my creative pursuits.
A few months ago, I disappeared from social media. I had become aware that I was very influenced by what I read, and transported into the story of the writer, with their truths becoming mine. Emotionally, I was wrapped up in things that had nothing to do with me. I recognized it as unhealthy and thought the easiest way to fix the problem was to delete social media apps on my phone. I noticed that it was in the stressful moments of the day that I picked up my phone. And when I didn’t have any apps on my phone to occupy my mind, I had to sit in the uncomfortableness and stress of those moments. I had time to think and nothing to hide behind.
After I had stopped distracting myself, I remembered a little bit about who I was. And that made me feel like that person wasn’t gone anymore. And then, when I came to that realization, it was like I woke up again. I remembered that I love designing and then I started designing. In fact, I started being creative in a million different ways. And now, suddenly, there is momentum in life that coexists with my little one’s best interests.
I’ve met and fallen in love with a precious little preschooler. She and I spend our days painting, baking, and scootering to the park. When she’s occupied, or napping, I’m working. And now, here is a sweet capsule collection of really wonderfully wearable scarves and wraps, as always, designed, and made by me entirely. I spent a lot of time pairing them with things in my existing closet, ensuring that they go with everyday-wear.
All of a sudden there is energy in life that is moving me forward. I’m not just trying to paddle my own boat along, there seems to be a breeze. I keep catching myself smiling for no reason, and looking forward to the next day.
Check out my collection. Pick something special and know it is made with love, by me.
It is an absolutely beautiful October day. You should be wearing a fabulous piece of outerwear. My choice was my new down vest with gold hardware. Yours?